5.30.2006

picture

once again it's been a while
I saw a picture that reminded me of you
and I felt like taking another one.
to update you know.

I've been happy telling stories of us
of have you've taken care of me
and of how I've admired you.

Whether I like it or not
I am like you
I walk the same way you do
I smile the same way you do
I probably react the same way you do.

still I strive for beinf different
even tough being like you comes naturally
and feels so comfortable

So I didn't take another picture.
I simply hung the older one in a new frame
i stared at it
and started walking towards home

5.04.2006

Welcome back
i know it's been a while
I was the one in charge of counting the days
remember?

Welcome back,
don't make that face like something went wrong
because nothing happened
nothing ever happens...

No...sorry..no big news around here...
remember that girl...well she got married
remember that guy...well..he moved to africa.
Me?...I'm still here.

Maybe this was a mistake.
i ought to have said hello and keep walking.
now, i don't even know if I'll wave hello...

I kept waving goodbye...until it turned into a hello that only lasts a second
to become again a goodbye.
I'm only hoping this wave will be the last one.
My hand is tired of waving.
I'll blow a kiss instead
so that it won't last..
so that it won't reach you
so that I can stop staring into the empty spot your shadow left.

Because that's all i saw from you... your shadow.