9.17.2006

happy/sad

"I'm happy sad, i'm broken down"

if you listen to a song way too many times, the words settle within your brain. They hang their pic of the walls of your memories and decide to plant a garden and bury their dead pets underneath it.
Thay might be slightly extreme, but it makes sense somehow.

"The roads don't love you." The roads do love me. They've been the best home i've had.

"I used to be so eager." I'm WAY to eager, too curious. My mom keeps telling me that i should wait and see...but the restlessness kicks in...and i start to pase around the room. You become uncomfortable and leave...then back again to pasing. NOt because i'm waiting for you to move, but because i'm waiting for you to come back. Most of the time you don't.

"i've found the controls, i go were i like...and maybe for now, i'll stay right here..."

yes, those are all lyrics to songs...find them...maybe you'll learn something about the one pasing across the room...me.


"I have the days when it comes easy
My blue eyed boy got show and tell
I need your laugh to make me well
No light is coming through my window

Gotta meet you face to face
Convince you that i’m not so strange


I'm happy sad
I’m broken down
But i’m upbeat when you come around
I’m happy sad it and it comes easy to me
I’m never one or the other

You have knocked me off my track
One lap to go and now i’m last
You know i used to be so eager
Get up, get up, get out of bed
The brightest day that ever led
You know you make me want to try harder

Gotta meet you face to face
Convince you that i’m not so strange
Just happy sad
I’m broken down
But i’m upbeat when come around
I’m happy sad it and it comes easy to me
I’m never one or the other


My friends are few, but that’s o.k
Cos when you’re around it all just fades away
My sadder boy

I’m happy sad
I’m broken down
But i’m upbeat when you come around
I’m happy sad
And it comes easy to me
I’m never one or the other

The road’s don’t love you,
They still don’t pretend to
The road’s don’t love you
They still don’t pretend to
The road’s don’t love you
They still don’t pretend to
The road’s don’t love you
The road’s don’t love you
They still don’t pretend to
The road’s don’t love you


(some version of Gemma Haye's "happy sad" song)